Sweater Weather.

September 28th

A quiet day at work. Cloudy sky made everyone really moody.

First day without my sister at home went really unnoticed. 

I'm a loner, so I usually spend my evenings with music and books in my room.

I bought a wonderful lipstick, perfect for autumn. 

September 29th

It's a great day to use the lipstick I mentioned above. A beautiful, rose - like colour. 

I've got a day off.

I'm just getting ready to leave, I'm meeting a friend soon. 

I could sleep as long as I wanted to, so I woke up feeling much better.

Last nights are pretty hard for me, I can't sleep - insomnia is back more than ever.

7.50p.m.

Oh we had such a nice dinner, I'm telling you. 

The day passed so fast, I can't believe it. Luckily I have a weekend off too, so I plan to take some photos - finally! All my cameras are completely covered in dust and it really hurts my soul. But the weather is still nice, so we want to use all this time well.

I created a playlist for you, guys. Something from the bottom of my heart to start my beloved autumn really well. Something to keep your evenings warm. And I really hope you enjoy. 

Lots of love

Autumn Bucket List

Semtember 25th.
Working Sunday is like... a day totally wasted. When you start your job at 3:00 p.m. you simply sleep as long as you can - well I do. I'm a night creature. I'm hyperactive during the evening and totally dead in the morning. Like a little hedgehog cuddled between some leaves.
But hey, autumn is already here and winter is coming and it's time to make some nice things for myself.
I used to be cold and pragmatic but come on, if I don't make life more colorful for myself nobody will do it for me.
I decided to make my own Autumn Bucket List. And you, guys, will be informed how it's going. I think it's a nice thing to cheer myself up and embrace my beloved autumn with my friends and on my own.

September 26th.
My younger sister is leaving for Spain tomorrow. She's going to spend there the whole year, working with children.
Am I jealous?
I don't know. I wish I had the courage to leave home for so long. I've tried once. It ended bad - my mental state got much worse and recovery was one of the hardest things I've ever experienced.
But I'm much better now, I already started my "new me" process - maybe new home will come along with my new job? Time will show.
Me and my family have a dinner out tonight for our last day together.
For the first time I will have our room only for myself. It doesn't change much but feels good.

10:54p.m.
I'm back from the family diner. It was really nice. But to be honest, I was thinking about my bucket list all the time, hahaha.
So, here it is.
Do something good for you too during these short, beautiful days.

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Oh, hello.

I've never had an english journal. Even if it's my second language and sometimes some things are easier for me to express in english - I've always written my poems and fears only in polish. 
I know my grammar may not be perfect, and I'm sorry for that. I used to speak more than write - but a person's always learning, right?

September 24th. 
Finally, a day off. I might describe this week as "not that terrible" and that's quite an achievement for me. I told my boss that I quit next month. I was so scared of her reaction but in the end she was't even mad that much.
There is so many things to do, so many letters to write back to, such a mess in my room and still, the only thing I do is looking for first yellow leaves in the woods around me. September feels warm and calm, smells of the sun so shy that you can barely notice it among the curly clouds.
My new job is in a bookstore. With people my age finally. They are so nice to me everytime we meet, they show me how happy they are that we're about to work together. I've never felt that before. I'm so looking forward to start already, even if I know it's gonna be much harder than my current job. But I don't even mind, you know? I'm just sure it's gonna be better anyway.

This is my first post and most of you don't even know who I am. Well, my bad.
I'm Mary, I'm 26. I fight depression for about 10 years now. I'm a child of Snow and Winter, that's why I nicknamed myself Lady Snowborn. But my favourite season is Autumn. People I loved told me my heart is made of stone or ice. But I can't really agree. My heart is just deep in sorrow and I'm so dififcult to love that my bed is cold and empty every single night.
I can't live without art. Photography, poetry, any kind of art really. It touches my soul and with art I can say I am still alive. Cause my cold hands always deny my words.

I bought myself a Venus flytrap. I've always dreamed of one so I'm so excited to have this little creature on my desk right now. I named her Cersei. Because the queen is venomous and dangerous.
She joins my Betta fish Mackbeth as my closest pet friends.