Oh, hello.

I've never had an english journal. Even if it's my second language and sometimes some things are easier for me to express in english - I've always written my poems and fears only in polish. 
I know my grammar may not be perfect, and I'm sorry for that. I used to speak more than write - but a person's always learning, right?

September 24th. 
Finally, a day off. I might describe this week as "not that terrible" and that's quite an achievement for me. I told my boss that I quit next month. I was so scared of her reaction but in the end she was't even mad that much.
There is so many things to do, so many letters to write back to, such a mess in my room and still, the only thing I do is looking for first yellow leaves in the woods around me. September feels warm and calm, smells of the sun so shy that you can barely notice it among the curly clouds.
My new job is in a bookstore. With people my age finally. They are so nice to me everytime we meet, they show me how happy they are that we're about to work together. I've never felt that before. I'm so looking forward to start already, even if I know it's gonna be much harder than my current job. But I don't even mind, you know? I'm just sure it's gonna be better anyway.

This is my first post and most of you don't even know who I am. Well, my bad.
I'm Mary, I'm 26. I fight depression for about 10 years now. I'm a child of Snow and Winter, that's why I nicknamed myself Lady Snowborn. But my favourite season is Autumn. People I loved told me my heart is made of stone or ice. But I can't really agree. My heart is just deep in sorrow and I'm so dififcult to love that my bed is cold and empty every single night.
I can't live without art. Photography, poetry, any kind of art really. It touches my soul and with art I can say I am still alive. Cause my cold hands always deny my words.

I bought myself a Venus flytrap. I've always dreamed of one so I'm so excited to have this little creature on my desk right now. I named her Cersei. Because the queen is venomous and dangerous.
She joins my Betta fish Mackbeth as my closest pet friends.